Monday, March 23, 2015

Discouragement, not so...

Good evening,

Here lately, we are still in the process of getting settled, yet in the process we have lost a family member and a childhood friend.

Here lately, it seems so easy to be overwhelmed with discouragement and depression. 

But the Holy Spirit told me not so!!!!

I empathize for the loss we have just experienced, but I cannot be stuck bogged down with depression because of it!

It seems like we get so caught up in the loss, that we forget to remember the life and legacy the loved ones lived and left for us to continue. We get so discouraged with everything that follows the loss that we lose sight of all the great and wonderful treasures we still have on Earth!

I am still trying to walk daily and remain positive, yet my head is high! I know God loves us, ALWAYS!!!!

The funniest thing happened, as I was thinking of this post, I opened my daily devotional/bible study app and the same wording (not exactly but close) appeared. We have daily trials! We lose people, things, emotions. Yet, we cannot let that discourage us to the point where we lose our faith! 

Our faith my be rocked but it is not destroyed! Cast down, but not discarded. We are a holy nation! 

So I am convinced to maintain my prayer life and continue on this journey called life! I hope you do too!

Stay blessed!

Thursday, March 19, 2015


Hello all,

So we have moved from our home back to my home state. It has been more of a test for me than I thought it would be.

I've always tried to be prepared when it comes to my children and this week has shown me that I need to ask more detailed questions when my children are involved so I don't get frustrated and angry.

My patience was tested when it came into registering my children into new schools... BOY... was I the angry mom that no one likes, and I had justified anger but anger is not the emotion I should have led with! Anger can lead to sin.

God always shows me I have more patience than I give myself credit for, though I, personally, don't see how I even have patience. I have a lot of flaws, a short temper is one of the biggest ones!

Yet, through my continued interactions with people, I saw that though anger was justified, patience was the way to go in my situation! Thank God for the people He sent my way to calm me and show me that my patience outweighed my anger!!!

Granted, what should have only taken one day took three, I believe that had I used patience instead of anger, I may have gotten it all done in one even two days!

So I'm still walking with my head up in faith. Hoping God will continue to speak to me and I will follow His ways always! 

Until next time, stay blessed!

Saturday, March 7, 2015

Simply listen...

We are in the process of moving. And lately every small thing has been getting to me: mentally , physically, emotionally & spiritually.

I finally asked God, what do you want me to do?

The answer was so weird to me... Just "listen"

That still soft voice, told me to listen. For my loud self, it's not easy, but I have and the journey has opened up some doors for me.

We sadly had to take our babies (pitbull and Pomeranian) to the Humane Society, and my kids cried like I was murdering them. Parts of me hurt so much, but I didn't cry, I listened...

In those moments, I heard how the pain I was experiencing with losing my dogs was exponential on my children and I empathized with them.

I listened to the lady as she explained the process and eased my apprehension a little but not really.

I listened to my pets, they were not afraid and I was saddened but eased at what was to be.

Most recently, a few minutes ago in fact, I had a mostly positive experience with a hair dresser in which she quoted me one price but then gave me another price after she finished my hair...

I was extremely upset especially since I already has a migraine, but I listened...

That small voice said just pay it, and I did...

I got some medicine for my headache and some food, and I saw the smiles on my daughters faces as they each got new hair styles for their final week in the peach state!

So it's been a test, 2015 a year of change, and for me to listen...

I praise God for the insight! Stay blessed